I really can't seem to help myself.
Can't promise shit to myself.
Can't stop myself.
I keep telling myself to stop,
but in the end I just go back to the same old routine.
Why do I keep torturing myself?
I already know this is just going to make me look like a loser.
I seem to have lost all that I care about.
What was said seems to have been forgotten.
Words may not be worth much,
but everything that was worth anything seems to have been tossed into the drain.
I feel so empty now, so devoid of positive emotions.
Whatever that at the beginning that manages to lift my spirits eventually falls to the ground and shatters into a million pieces.
I can't seem to manage a smile for more than 5 seconds.
The physical pain is bearable,
but the emotional wounds seem to just hide beneath the scabs and continue to fester.
The pain just hides for a while, but it comes back once in a while.
Like a bite that refuses to heal,
forcing you to scratch and make it bleed.
I feel so alone.
signing out (29aug 12:05am)
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