Have you ever tired to convince yourself that what you see is only temporary, and will change for the better? I guess that will happen to all of us once in a while. What happens though when you deceive yourself for too long and even after knowing the truth, still decides to "hope" for a better tomorrow?
You end up being miserable for the tiniest little things.
Talking about this cause I realized I have been trying to convince myself that things have not changed, but in reality, things change everyday; yesterday a stranger, today a friend, excellent market status in the morning, economic downturn in the evening, water bottle now, recycled plastic a few hours later.
But what of it? What does all this mean you might ask. What I want to say is that things will never remain the same forever, be it in a minute, a day or a year, things eventually change, and what is reality in the past will be forgotten in the future. People may say this one moment, but in a few days or weeks what they have said is totally forgotten.
What I realized today is that I have been deceiving myself for the past few months, telling myself the same thing, but the circumstances have changed, rules have evolved, new players have joined the game, and what previously had a huge significance is reduced to nothing. What was admired in the first place is lost and changed. 失去的 討不回來.
signing out (12:50am 7Sept)
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
When you realize it's late. But not too late ;)
Have you ever tired to convince yourself that what you see is only temporary, and will change for the better? I guess that will happen to all of us once in a while. What happens though when you deceive yourself for too long and even after knowing the truth, still decides to "hope" for a better tomorrow?
You end up being miserable for the tiniest little things.
Talking about this cause I realized I have been trying to convince myself that things have not changed, but in reality, things change everyday; yesterday a stranger, today a friend, excellent market status in the morning, economic downturn in the evening, water bottle now, recycled plastic a few hours later.
But what of it? What does all this mean you might ask. What I want to say is that things will never remain the same forever, be it in a minute, a day or a year, things eventually change, and what is reality in the past will be forgotten in the future. People may say this one moment, but in a few days or weeks what they have said is totally forgotten.
You end up being miserable for the tiniest little things.
Talking about this cause I realized I have been trying to convince myself that things have not changed, but in reality, things change everyday; yesterday a stranger, today a friend, excellent market status in the morning, economic downturn in the evening, water bottle now, recycled plastic a few hours later.
But what of it? What does all this mean you might ask. What I want to say is that things will never remain the same forever, be it in a minute, a day or a year, things eventually change, and what is reality in the past will be forgotten in the future. People may say this one moment, but in a few days or weeks what they have said is totally forgotten.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
萧敬腾 is FREAKING AWESOME!!!
Songs that reaches the heart and describes what I am feeling and want to feel <3
Especially love 只能想念你 and 不停有意外的世界 <3!!!
signing out (11:50PM 05 Sept)
Especially love 只能想念你 and 不停有意外的世界 <3!!!
signing out (11:50PM 05 Sept)
Monday, August 29, 2011
Lies
I really can't seem to help myself.
Can't promise shit to myself.
Can't stop myself.
I keep telling myself to stop,
but in the end I just go back to the same old routine.
Why do I keep torturing myself?
I already know this is just going to make me look like a loser.
I seem to have lost all that I care about.
What was said seems to have been forgotten.
Words may not be worth much,
but everything that was worth anything seems to have been tossed into the drain.
I feel so empty now, so devoid of positive emotions.
Whatever that at the beginning that manages to lift my spirits eventually falls to the ground and shatters into a million pieces.
I can't seem to manage a smile for more than 5 seconds.
The physical pain is bearable,
but the emotional wounds seem to just hide beneath the scabs and continue to fester.
The pain just hides for a while, but it comes back once in a while.
Like a bite that refuses to heal,
forcing you to scratch and make it bleed.
I feel so alone.
signing out (29aug 12:05am)
Can't promise shit to myself.
Can't stop myself.
I keep telling myself to stop,
but in the end I just go back to the same old routine.
Why do I keep torturing myself?
I already know this is just going to make me look like a loser.
I seem to have lost all that I care about.
What was said seems to have been forgotten.
Words may not be worth much,
but everything that was worth anything seems to have been tossed into the drain.
I feel so empty now, so devoid of positive emotions.
Whatever that at the beginning that manages to lift my spirits eventually falls to the ground and shatters into a million pieces.
I can't seem to manage a smile for more than 5 seconds.
The physical pain is bearable,
but the emotional wounds seem to just hide beneath the scabs and continue to fester.
The pain just hides for a while, but it comes back once in a while.
Like a bite that refuses to heal,
forcing you to scratch and make it bleed.
I feel so alone.
signing out (29aug 12:05am)
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
A Question I Ask Myself
Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi
Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)
Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari
Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari de otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi
Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)
Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo
Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?
Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)
Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)
Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (tsurakutemo)
English Lyrics :
Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here
But you have chosen a different road
Why wasnt I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they wont reach you now
From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melded together so naturally
Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road
Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)
Today, the day that holds a special meaning
The day that you stood with a smile of happiness
Praying to God in your beautiful appearance
With the person next to you who isnt me
The image of you receiving blessings
How could I just stand aside and watch
So why did I end up falling for you?
We cant go back to that time, or how we were (Ive thought it through)
Why wasnt I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You always shouldve been by my side
Now it will never come true
But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me.
Why Did I Fall In Love With You - DBSK
signing out
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi
Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)
Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari
Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari de otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi
Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)
Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo
Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?
Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)
Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)
Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (tsurakutemo)
English Lyrics :
Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here
But you have chosen a different road
Why wasnt I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they wont reach you now
From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melded together so naturally
Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road
Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)
Today, the day that holds a special meaning
The day that you stood with a smile of happiness
Praying to God in your beautiful appearance
With the person next to you who isnt me
The image of you receiving blessings
How could I just stand aside and watch
So why did I end up falling for you?
We cant go back to that time, or how we were (Ive thought it through)
Why wasnt I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You always shouldve been by my side
Now it will never come true
But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me.
Why Did I Fall In Love With You - DBSK
signing out
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Plans within plans.
plan·ning/ˈplaniNG/Noun
1. The process of making plans for something.
2. The control of urban development by a local government authority, from which a license must be obtained to build a new property or change an existing one.
Credits to Google.
Take note about the first part. The process of making plans for something. This definition didn't tell us how a pain in the ASS this would be! So many things to consider so many things that you cant take into account, it will drive you mad! It's crazy trying to set everything to be perfect when so many things get in your way. ESPECIALLY time limitations, and doing what I am doing now during the exam period is nothing short of crazy. People will be reading their notes and studying while I'm racking my mind trying to fix this. (Thank God the previous paper was relatively easy =P. Hope I can pass!!)
This definition also doesn't you how many lies you have to tell to make it a successful surprise and I am quite surprised how much I want this to be a success. And doing things in the dark is no fun either, have to do thing in a secretive manner and as the chinese saying goes 作东西做到鬼鬼祟祟. I think I spot some mistakes in those few chinese words but it's a surprise I can write them at all =P.
Watched AVP2 (Aliens versus Predator 2) again today for the second time and I realized the reason I didn't remember any details about it is because IT SUCKSSS!!! Like totally sucky, the action part was in a way acceptable and the rest was just gore. BORING! And even the gore is boring, just lots of blood and things blowing up. The movie wasn't even clear! You will be staring into darkness most of the time trying to figure out what you are looking at. Quite a fail movie to be honest.
The last exam is tomorrow!!! NICEEEEE!! It will be the start of exams and the beginning of saving up for my graduation trip! =D. Most of all, I want to use this time to spend it with all my closest friends either working together or just meeting up a few times a week for a pool game (hint) or an outing to ride bicycles(hint hint =P) =D. Gonna be finishing my notes writing tomorrow morning and continue to study throughout the day to prepare for tomorrow, ace it and screw it. BOOOYAAA!
signing out
This definition also doesn't you how many lies you have to tell to make it a successful surprise and I am quite surprised how much I want this to be a success. And doing things in the dark is no fun either, have to do thing in a secretive manner and as the chinese saying goes 作东西做到鬼鬼祟祟. I think I spot some mistakes in those few chinese words but it's a surprise I can write them at all =P.
Watched AVP2 (Aliens versus Predator 2) again today for the second time and I realized the reason I didn't remember any details about it is because IT SUCKSSS!!! Like totally sucky, the action part was in a way acceptable and the rest was just gore. BORING! And even the gore is boring, just lots of blood and things blowing up. The movie wasn't even clear! You will be staring into darkness most of the time trying to figure out what you are looking at. Quite a fail movie to be honest.
The last exam is tomorrow!!! NICEEEEE!! It will be the start of exams and the beginning of saving up for my graduation trip! =D. Most of all, I want to use this time to spend it with all my closest friends either working together or just meeting up a few times a week for a pool game (hint) or an outing to ride bicycles(hint hint =P) =D. Gonna be finishing my notes writing tomorrow morning and continue to study throughout the day to prepare for tomorrow, ace it and screw it. BOOOYAAA!
signing out
Friday, August 12, 2011
The comment box
I realized something funny ... Almost no one uses the comment box eh? Even the more famous blog I go to there are not a lot of people that use the comment function under each blog post. Haha weird ~ Blogger is under utilized! XD.
Going for exams soon! It starts at 4 later =D.
I also realized that if I use my iPod to post my blog there is a drag time for it to be fully posted. Gonna put a time mark at the end of the post from now on =P
signing out (12:16am)
Going for exams soon! It starts at 4 later =D.
I also realized that if I use my iPod to post my blog there is a drag time for it to be fully posted. Gonna put a time mark at the end of the post from now on =P
signing out (12:16am)
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
So much!
I have so much to say! Haha, but those words is would say are ..... Dangerous to public ears? Haha. Projects are over and we have a brief respite before the exams. And then it's finally the holidays and it's time to save up for graduation trip! I'm still wondering where I would go =). Hmmm perhaps Ocean Park with friends! Or a solitary journey through New Zealand could be fun too ^^.
On the things I have to say .... I really wish I could say them out loud. But in the end I just hope I can survive my emotions and hope they don't give me a heart attack! Haha. There is alwas thing about me I can't really explain. Perhaps it is my destiny or something. I have power to control my choices, but in the end it still ends up with the same results.
Perhaps I shouldn't dwell on it too much? Maybe this time it might be different although it won't meet my expectations but perhaps it might be different ^^. Let's hope, for if hope is lost, everything is truly lost.
signing out
On the things I have to say .... I really wish I could say them out loud. But in the end I just hope I can survive my emotions and hope they don't give me a heart attack! Haha. There is alwas thing about me I can't really explain. Perhaps it is my destiny or something. I have power to control my choices, but in the end it still ends up with the same results.
Perhaps I shouldn't dwell on it too much? Maybe this time it might be different although it won't meet my expectations but perhaps it might be different ^^. Let's hope, for if hope is lost, everything is truly lost.
signing out
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